I deleted most of what I've written. Sorry for the vagaries, but the details are, for lack of a better word, complicated.
Just know this, for a girl who has always been just one of the guys — learning how to be myself without a firm grasp on the language without misleading, misunderstanding and complete chaos is very difficult.
Back to listening to the language course. Going to take the Italian class here everyday NO MATTER WHAT.
Never again do I want to hurt someone's feelings because I can't communicate. But I'm not willing yet to succumb to complete remove.